A glimpse back in time and a personal share of a few years ago, and how I’ve transformed along the way…
A few years ago…
For most of my life I was living outside of myself mostly for others and to please the world. I would have these glimpses into myself, my gifts, my stories, and it would fascinate me, but I didn’t believe them. I was stuck on a pattern of sampling the world around me and moulding myself into whatever I thought I needed to be, and even do.
And yet, the tugging of my soul kept on reminding me that there is SO much more to me, and she kept on showing me deeper and deeper inside myself into places I was in awe of, but also afraid of.
Afraid of my power.
And that to truly live in that power I need to let go of the parts of me that’s ‘pleasing the world’, that’s living outside of my body and moulding myself into parts that are just not serving, and just not me.
Alchemy – one of the core principles is containment – holding energy and allowing it to work within instead of keeping the lid off before it can transform.
And I’ve been an open lid my whole life. Always somehow running away and distracting myself from my own body, my own inner world, my own power, my own natural gifts and my stories and medicine.
I didn’t know how to contain, because containment felt too powerful…
After a year of being thrown into my own inner world and darkness, a place that is more beautiful than all the molded stories of my being, all the parts I played that I thought I should play to be worthy of this life.
I saw that behind and within the dark there is a bright light waiting to be acknowledged and seen, that’s the magick of us! Right there in the places we don’t want to go.
And when we’re brave enough to go there, that’s when our lives change into flow, that’s when all the puzzle pieces show themselves to us and we then have the choice to build our real story. Our true self story.
The answer is YOU!
Nothing else. Just you.
And now…
Now I have built something I am SO proud of. A life and a business that allows me to do the things that light me up.
I am at home with my children and husband, in control of my own time. I spend my days reading, learning, making potions, supporting others in spirituality and unlocking intuitive wisdom and magick and I ‘work’ only 3-4 hours per day. Sometimes even less, and never weekends (not anymore, I used to…). I am sharing my passion, intuitive gifts and healing abilities with powerful beings who felt the call into self-empowerment and self-sovereignty. And I love learning from them even more about myself.
Even though I am not nearly where I am dreaming myself to be, I am already on that path towards it, and I am getting the magickal glimpses along the way. And I believe my biggest dreams and visions will also evolve along the way, that’s just what it means to be an alive energetic being…
Your life unfolds in proportion to how brave you are in creating what you dream about. It’s something that’s alive and it’s also LIFE – life giving, life enhancing, life changing.
It’s good to look back at times, at things you’ve written down, of where you’ve been, because sometimes it’s only in hindsight that we see we’re currently living what we’ve been praying for…
Life is about transformation, it’s something we all go through, I’ve written a beautiful post about the Heroine’s Journey of feminine awakening.
So look back today, honour yourself in how far you’ve come, it will make you smile, and it’s beautiful.
Creating Inner Alchemy
Everyone who comes into my world remembers their power, intuitive wisdom, and natural gifts. So if you feel the call…
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